Why are people mean? And by 'people', I mean everyone - even myself. Like, why do we do or say things purely to hurt others? Being 'mean' has almost become a normality. It's common to hear a girl say "Mary Jones is such a bitch." or to hate someone on the basis that your friend has beef with them. I just don't understand. I honestly find it so hard to find sound reasoning behind that kind of behaviour. At the same time, I'm not saying I'm a saint. I know how easy it is to get caught up in that kind of thing. It's so easy, you don't even notice you're doing it...

Is there any point?
Raaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
"Let the past make you better, not bitter." Must keep this in mind.

Almost spoke about him today. Very glad I didn't. I'm sleepy - will finish this post tomorrow.

Tomorrow...
Jog
Swim
Pull up/Handstand practise
Yoga
Markets
Viola
Guitar
Ring Dad
Shoes
Read
Go to the beach

Rah rah rah

I'm so tired. So tired. I've worked everyday and am so tired. Today is New Year's Eve and I am fucking tired.

I'm unhappy with a lot of things in my life. I miss my Dad a lot. Rah rah rah!

2013

Okay - I feel like I need to sort my life out. And I need to slot in yoga, gym, swimming, work, guitar and viola lessons.

Monday
Swim 6-6.30
School 8-2.30
Ballet
Darwin Youth Choir
Stay at Mum's

Tuesday
Viola 6-7
School 8-2.30
Ballet/BRAVE (3-6)
Gary's 6.30-8.30
Stay at Mum's

Wednesday
Guitar 6-7
School 8-2.30
Viola 3-4
Gym 6-7
Body Balance 7-8
Stay at Dad's

Thursday
Tabata (Pool) 6-6.45
School 8-2.30
Ballet/BRAVE (3-6)
Stay at Mum's

Friday
Viola 6-7
School 8-2.30
Yoga 4-5.30
Gym 6.15-8
Stay at Dad's

Saturday
*Yoga 7.15-8.45
Ballet
BRAVE 1.30 - 5
Swim 6-6.30
Stay at Dad's

Sunday
Work 10.45-6
Stay at Dad's

Practise guitar and viola at school during lunch and recess as well.

The day after..

Plans for tomorrow
- Get to Palmerston by 8ish
- Get my free membership
- Do a class or two
- Come home
- Play viola
- Read
- Play guitar
- Skate
- Take out the kayak with Lysa
- Eat clean!

So far the first 4 have not happened and probably won't happen.
To get the free membership I have to get a letter from Yollie. So I decided I would do that tomorrow just before my shift - which saves me doing two trips to Palmerston.

For breakfast I had porridge (1/3 oats with 3/4 water) with banana, honey and cinnamon. For morning tea I plan on having a couple of snow peas and for lunch, a carrot. I'll keep updating as the day goes by.
I think because I'm not doing the gym thing today I might cycle to the pool and do some laps.